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Currently Listening "Queen - The Platinum Collection: Greatest Hits I, II & III" By Queen Don't Stop Me Now "Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time. I feel alive, and the world, it's turning inside out. Yeah... I'm gonna go, go, go, go. There's no stopping me... I wanna make a supersonic man out of you... Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time, I'm having a ball. Don't stop me now..." see related

Well

This was a week of the great and terrible.

In the most literal senses of those words.

I love you kids a lot.

Thanks Kyle and Brett for hanging out for a bit... Hope your pictures reflect the amount of fun it was to have you both around again. I've missed you way more than you've missed this place, I'm sure. :)

And thanks to everyone who just cares and makes me sane when all of the elements of my life seem in disarray.

I think 2006 will be my last full year in Louisiana.

No objections, because those who are close to me know I'm dying to leave for someplace new and less filled with so many things with which I'm indifferent.

I'll figure it out and find where I'm meant to be. It's just not here anymore.

I love it here so much, it's almost like I have to give it up because I've conquered it. I need something fresh and threatening. I guess that's why I push away what is too comfortable and cling to what doesn't quite accept or mesh well with me.

Sorry to you kids I seem to harrass... I'm trying to win you over simply because it's a challenge. I'm so curious to find out what elements are obstacles in attaching to you / vice-versa. 

But, I'm exhausted with the same people posing the same challenges. It's just not interesting or entertaining as it once was. So... Onto something new.

Something that makes me feel less like a cynic and more like a human being.

I lovvve you Fogle dear.

Anna, you saved me a lot tonight.

Kyle and Brett... You make me so curious sometimes. Haha. That's all there is to say about you both.

And... Pretty much everyone else (excepting Tina Marie Dean), I'm really sure you don't care, so screw you.

: D

... Well.

I am single.   ...

Thank you to everyone else.

You made my birthday and my party unbelievable.

So amazing and perfect.

I wouldn't change a thing.

Despite everything, it will be okay.

All for the best.

(...I hope)

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend.

-Edit.-

I wish I had options.

It's so painful to just walk away.

Is this even the right thing?

God, help me.   ...Please?

Currently Listening Super Hits of the '70s: Have a Nice Day, Vol. 12 By Various Artists Track 1: Seasons in the Sun - by Terry Jacks "Goodbye to you, my trusted friend. We've known eachother since we're nine or ten. Goodby my friend, it's hard to die, when all the birds are singing in the sky. Now that the spring is in the air, pretty girls are everywhere. When you see them, I'll be there... We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun, but the stars we could reach were just starfish on the beach..." see related

It's my mother's birthday today.

Yeah... I totally forgot. I just thought tomorrow was the 20th. ...And today is.

So yeah.

But... I am working at Caliente again. :D

However, I was totally insulted by one of my managers and this new waitress. She was such a whore. I am still very angry if you cannot tell...

And. I got my ACT scores back. Let's just say I was not too pleased. The highest score was a 33. In English. I'm not quite happy about that.

Plus, I had a lovely parking ticket because the meter ran out.

And Amber kept hanging up on me today.

And... Um... Yeah. I have an audition tomorrow.

And Thursday I'm taking cover charge at the door for a big party from 10-2. In the morning. Haha. Late night, hm? Pretty grand. Basically the only thing I'm pleased about.

Whatever.

I love you guys!

I'm gonna go find a reason to smile...

Currently Listening After the Gold Rush By Neil Young Track 7: Don't Let It Bring You Down "...Don't let it bring you down. It's only castles burning..." see related

I Wish I Had A Job

I have an audition tomorrow riiight after school.

Also...

I miss Caliente. I have called and called and called Monte, but he is never there.

I'm just going to storm the restaurant and hug them all into submitting and respecting me as the most amazing hostess ever. ...again.

What to do with myself?! I have done nearly everything I can think of, and now I think I'm simply going to clean my room to my heart's content.

Which is a LOT of cleaning.

I miss my best friends. Many close ones here still, but that doesn't change how much I miss you other people. Come back soon? Please?

Cory? Kyle? Brett? Trevor? Eric? Geez... So much time has gone by since I've seen you all last.

I love you much. Yep.

*Edit*  And I miss Tina Marie Dean most of all.